Ways of Resistance

fostering conversation, rambling on, occasionally ranting

Fears and Dis-employment

I have been challenged a great deal by Paul Munn. For the last couple of months, he and I have been emailing back and forth about the so-called “gift economy” Jesus taught and lived. My interest in this new (to me) conversation started when I realized that I would in fact be coming back from Peru, like it or not, to a job that I wasn’t excited about and, to top it off, in the midst of a personal life confused about direction, calling, community, and relationships. I wrote Paul initially to ask him some questions about those issues (mostly for the comfort of telling someone my fears). It sort of snowballed, however, into new territory, into things I haven’t considered much to date. Someday I would love to distill a few of our interactions into blog posts, but for now I’m linking to a few of the latest essays he wrote published over at Jesus Manifesto.

Come to me, all ye who labor for a living

Come to me, all ye who labor for a living (part 2)

Come to me, all ye who labor for a living (part 3)

Evangelism

I hate that word, the way it’s used most times. Consider this example (I just did a google search for the word ‘evangelism’). Not anything like the way of Jesus, according to the Gospel writers anway. 

I like the way Paul Munn helps us understand a crucial and happy part of Jesus’ life in the kingdom: the invitation to follow. Paul takes a problem-saturated word like evangelism (i.e., “there’s a gap between you and God”) and, by contrast, points all of us, nonbeliever and believer alike, into Jesus’ radical dependency and trust on God. And he never actually uses the above abused word to describe the invitation, but shows us an alternative way:

From this we can see how others can be drawn in to Jesus’ way. People first see something in the faith of Jesus’ followers and also see their vulnerability and need. So they are inspired to offer some help. This gives them the experience of God’s love, God working through them to support his own children, and also exposes them to Jesus’ way of life. If they then open themselves to this life, they will progressively give more, becoming more vulnerable and dependent themselves. And so they too will become inspirations to encourage giving, both by their example and their need. As people grow in this way, their gifts change. They have less material possessions to share, but their lives become a more valuable gift, both as an inspiration calling others to enter into God’s love and help care for his children and as a model for faith by which we become (and live as) God’s children.

This progression is like a cycle of life which continues to draw others into Jesus’ way.

The Gospel, Salvation, and Epistemology (AKA Truth)–Part 2

Before reading this, you might want to read Part 1. Otherwise, enjoy the dialogue and feel free to join in.

Hannah:

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen”. Heb 11:1  God never intended for us to follow blind faith, or to believe just because someone says so, or even to sit around and speculate about who God might be. Faith is something that comes from having a relationship with God and faith grows as a result of growing closer to Him. When I say I have faith in Nate, that is built on a relationship of trust. I have the substance of knowing who he is, and the evidence of seeing what he’s done.

Jason:

I believe it isn’t as much a matter of having faith vs. not having faith, but a matter of what kind of faith one has. In other words, during Jesus’ day faith in Caesar or Rome was not faith in Christ the Messiah. Everyone has faith. It may not be religious faith (or Christian faith), but it is faith nonetheless. In that respect, most folks (Christians included) mainly struggle with idolatry.

One only truly comes alive (and has any idea what eternal life means) within Christ’s community of disciples. Being born again is more an experience or series of true events than ideas or rationalizations about creeds.

Church, I believe, is that radical group of people who trust God’s story so wholly that they are willing to order their lives after his Way. The world, then, has a prophetic (and often ethically challenging) picture of the kind of social-political reality Jesus believed the kingdom of the heavens to be. His body, the church, is the focus of salvation. I just reread John 3: 17-21. That’s a good passage, perhaps, to help us understand this issue. Maybe next time we can discuss what it means.

The information about who Jesus is may (or may not) be clear to some (like, for example, the disciples), but the living witness of His trustworthiness will have a stronger root (and effect) if the Lord of everything gives it breath and tends the planting. It’s very tempting for us to pursue knowledge (which puffs up) over embodiment and grace-filled reconciliation. God’s salvation lived out in a visible, social and political body deepens our resistance to evil and gives us creativity for the eternal kind of life with God and his body now in this life, in this town, in this neighborhood, in this called-out people named church (and Naked Faith).

La Iglesia Emergente

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Unfinished Fiction…

combi1.jpgI’ve been emailing and reflecting and learning and wrestling…all those things…and more. Now, I’m not sure what to make of what. I’m lost, I think. Maybe not, but probably I am. I’ve constructed so many lies and so many fantasies and now I’m wondering when the sherade will finally close it’s curtain, turn down the lights, send us all home. I want to get behind (or in front of) the fantasy of having it both ways. You can be rich and be faithful. You can run without getting hurt or without it costing you and your family. Didn’t you know that, son, you’re in for a great deal of pain?

I never thought about suffering this way. Perhaps it’s going to be a slow death. The kind that would make you sweat just thinking about it. Will it wait?

I don’t want to die. I want a promise and a resurrection without a minute to think. I’m tired. I can’t say goodbye yet. I thought I would be able to do what I said. It’s easier to think it through then to be the one who pulls the trigger.

The car slid away from the sidewalk under hazy yellow fake sunlight along with other general intrusions into the nighttime city air. We listened to the radio, restlessly, dispassionate, searching the selections of popular formats in Lima. Surfer music: Red Hot Chili Peppers. Eighties music: The Police. Salsa music: Marc Antony. Reggeton: Daddy Yankee. Politics: RPP Noticias. Christian music: Marcos Witt. No one talked. We all waited. Perhaps the moment was going to surprise us, once we get to where we’re going, perhaps an untimely gift. A night to remember, isn’t that what we all expected? Yelmi sat beside Esmi who sat beside Karen who sat in the back seat of Frank’s red 1992 Volkswagen five-door. I was up front with Frank. Frank was driving.

It’s hard, you might say, to just come on out and break all the details on the table. I’m not Catholic, but if I was I would have been praying my Hail Marys and seeking the consolation of San Martín. Ah, what the hell? Truth be told, it seemed like a good night to become prayerful. We pulled behind the large orange-colored COVIDA bus, the abreviations of all their stops cursively painted across its mast. Through the rear window La Virgen looked at us, our trailing hearts, behind the haze of smoke, smog, and darkness, behind our layers of metal, skin, and paint.

Then…

Dispatches from Peru

Hello everyone,

Just wanted to check in briefly. I’m in Lima, Peru with my wife and son. We’re having a great time. It’s actually really hard for me to be this close to something I desire so much (living/serving in Peru), but nonetheless that’s only because the people and places have beautified my life to such a great extent. And so I’m actually happy now that I think about. (I can hear myself thinking, “You’re going in circles again, Jason!” I sound like mom, for those of you who know her). Anyway, other than a staph infection, my health is good. Oh yeah…I got a STAPH INFECTION! Thankfully, my work covered me with insurance through April and there are some authorized providers here in Lima. I went to a clinic in the ritzy part of town. It actually seemed more like a club or resort than a medical clinic. They had flat screen TVs, a nice coffee shop, professional photographs of Peru on the walls etc. I got some medicine, which cost more than the visit (How do average Peruvians afford to get antibiotics?). Pray that it gets better. The last thing I want is to bring this back with me (or to have them perform some sort of puss extraction on my left hip!).

I’ll leave you with that thought firmly pressed into your heads.

Chau,

Jason

The Look of My Church [Part 3]

My wife, according to most definitions, is still an immigrant from South America. By moving here almost ten years ago, she chose (mostly unwillingly) to experience grief through the loss of family, a common culture and shared history, familiar spirituality, and life-long friends–all this, most of the time, she endured alone. North American folks seem to lose sight very easily of the grieving process which immigrants often know very well. We grieve, but we do it privately, for different reasons, and without showing much (if any) emotion.

Now, almost ten years into my wife’s immigration journey, she still speaks with clarity and loving urgency from her identity, even though years of loneliness and homesickness has made it difficult to say much. I’m proud of her. In fact, I want to be like her. My lament, at least for the time being, isn’t one externalized by foreign borders and geographical distance but by the experience of displacement inside my own household, my own culture so to speak. As a friend recently told me, we are an overeducated people without bearings, without visible signs of “kingdom come.” In other words, we’ve been educated right out of naivete and now experience deep suspicion and grief as a result of our displacement and detachment. We’re all part of failed and dying relationships, institutions, and structures which may no longer serve us and, perhaps, no longer want to claim us as their members. We are new immigrants into a philosophical, economic, moral and religious collapse. We recognize ourselves as a people without direction: lost. We are loosely connected almost everywhere globally and yet also experience profound meaninglessness and worry. We’re not sure what to re-make or what to tear down among the ruins of empire. We see the spirit in the ash, in the margins, in the weak, and somehow still struggle to convince ourselves that it’s wise to be here.

I’ve written this essay–a rough sketch indeed–as my lament, but also it is my document of hope. The same God that invites my sorrow also brings us joy. And this work of imagination, for me at least, is an outline of that manifest. I may get sidetracked here and there, but I’m confident the loose ends will get rounded out, though they will likely also leave us pondering the questions (just as they should!). The next few paragraphs will be both descriptive and prescriptive, about both small (and even smaller) notations for a new kind of Christian faith collective. The language many folks are using to talk about this–intentional community or a new monasticism–seems to describe well the particular embodiment I’m hoping for. The adventure begins today!

What’s the overall vision?

The church that I go to is understood mostly (primarily?) as a place for a relatively large amount of people to gather (+ or - 150 people) on a Sunday morning. Its primary purpose is to facilitate spiritual growth through weekly large-group gatherings, mixed in with a few small groups and/or midweek activities. This form of being church belongs squarely within the rhythms and passions of a common life lived day-to-day, rooted in a particular community, household, neighborhood, and place. The stuff we commonly take for granted as being essential to “church,” on the other hand, ought to get peripheral attention (in terms of time, money, and energy spent) in favor of more integral forms of being prophetic signs and witnesses.

(Speaking of neighborhood, a friend of mine, David, who is an architect working within the new urbanism movement, made a funny (if not sarcastic) remark the other day. He noted that the biggest church in our city goes by the name Neighborhood Church, and yet it is surrounded almost entirely by industrial buildings, a freeway, and big box retail/fast food. Wouldn’t it be more compelling, for both the skeptics and the already-convinced, if our names cohered with our places? “Fellowship” is another word that gets thrown around (in abstraction and marketing) too often. Language matters, don’t you think?)

What I’m about to say now might get easily dismissed, like a politician’s promise for “change.” The apparent absurdity and highfalutin’ theological/ecclesiastical ideas could be oft-putting. (At this point, the audiences may thin.) Alright, here’s the scary thought: I think we ought to let those large gathering places (what we tend to call church) to stand as they are but to fundamentally change their mission. I think we ought to invite smaller intentional communities, which tend to sound better in theory anyway, to emerge out of isolation and into the collective praxis and conversation of Evangelicalism. We should enjoy the large gathering, yes, but it should be a much smaller part of our theology and economic practice.

This might mean fewer large-gathering venues will be needed for the body of Christ in a given city. Many churches, as a result, could reasonably scale down their day-to-day bottom line, put unused or costly buildings to the collaborative use and expense of multiple communities. Perhaps, if this became all our intention, we could witness and experience the kind of Christian unity we have all heard exists when denominations and churches take seriously a theology of neighborhood rather than mere event and “consumer satisfaction.” Many churches might learn to share their resources and operate with more thrift. We might see local neighboring bodies invite each other to join in common liturgy/worship. The large gathering still has space within the ecology of church, but its space is profoundly changed.

A Few Specifics

I would like to suggest some very concrete changes in the way we, my tribe (as well as many other evangelical communities), order their Sunday morning worship. First, reorder the seating (setting them in the round or in subgroups of smaller cohorts) for the purpose of fostering a deeper interaction. Second, offset “the stage” as the focal point in the room in order to decentralize our attention off of “celebrities” and onto the community, that is, onto Christ’s broken body. Third, invite member participation, storytelling, and artistic expression throughout the liturgy or worship service using both prepared and open-ended invitations. Lastly (and I guess the possibilities are actually endless), take us out-of-doors, around tables to share a meal, entice us with parties, community work, and learning relationships. Ok, maybe that last one is too much to ask…

Living as a Christian Alternative

Christian intentional communities, no matter the size, ought to engage in practices of place, practices of body, and practices of resurrection:

  • Practices of place could include the following: living in close proximity to other members in the community and/or co-housing; using slower-human-scale-machinery such as bicycles and buses for transportation as the preferred choice; using solar-energy-transportation such as walking in order to better know (i.e., pay attention to) and love a place; supporting local economies that honor God’s creation and neighborhood; co-producing entertainments and artistic expressions that provoke the prophetic imagination of peoplehood and places; and, lastly (though more could be said), activating ourselves for the sake of the weakest and most marginalized (dare I say, even our enemies) and integrating the life of place with the life of community (which naturally includes both human culture and nature, politics and economy, etc.).
  • Practices of body could include the following: interacting with spiritual disciplines (such as prayer, journaling, silence, solitude, celebration, fasting, service, and study, etc.); exercising and working with our bodies (both individually and communally); seeking collective spiritual direction and transformative rituals (i.e., baptism, stations of the cross, the Eucharist, etc.); making space for healing, reconciliation, and forgiveness as biblical signs to this crazy upside-down world that Jesus proclaimed.
  • Practices of resurrection could include the following: subverting violence (in its many insidious forms) with enemy-love and prophetic imagination/performances; planting gardens and throwing parties in order to seed hope and lasting goodness in the community; encouraging families/communities (particularly the elderly) to educate their young; bringing hospitality to displaced “others” (whoever they may be: elders, homeless folks, immigrants, radicals, orphans, etc). In general, put into practice the Sermon on the Mount and Luke 4.

Conclusion

These three praxis, drawn out in the community, could take shape in conversations by the coffee table as well as in study/learning groups, in promises and vows we make to one another and (as Ghandi put it) “experiments in truth,” in cross-cultural and out-door adventures, and, without a doubt, in mission to God’s beloved creation. These explanations and categories have framed my thinking, and yet I realize their limitations and my own ignorance. The fact that they overlap and intersect is taken for granted. The fact that you could make other choices about what to say/do in a particular category is also evident. The fact that they are incomplete and in need of community discernment and revision has halted me in my steps more than a few times. In other words, the specifics are still yet to come (not just borne in words and imagination but in day-to-day community life) and are evolving.

Now that I’ve said so much, I wonder what the reader thinks…Agree/disagree with my assessment of things? Want to try creating something new with me? :)

The Look of My Church [Part 1]

The Look of My Church [Part 2]

The Look of My Church [Part 2.5]

The Gospel, Salvation, and Epistemology (AKA Truth)–Part 1

Among the many beautiful aspects of conversation the best part, I think, is surprise. New ideas and deeper directions tend to sneak up in a conversation at the most unexpected times. I’ve been emailing back and forth with a new friend from Naked Faith, which is a Vineyard home community, regarding a few recently discussed theological topics and themes. I suspect, to be quite honest, that although we see value in conversation for the sake of learning both of us really mostly love the energy and passion, the unexpected and irreducible recognitions of life that both confronts and encourages. Especially in conversations about Jesus. Especially with two fairly–ok, very!–opinion-heavy conversationists.

The fact is, and most of you know it, I love to talk out my ideas and I ask those people who can stand my inner processings to respond and make me think. Well, Hannah Lang has done just that. She is a twenty-year-old mother of two (with another baby on the way!), wife to Nate, and, dare I say, a naturally gifted thinker and, though I know she won’t like this, theologian. Our conversations have been enriching and–need I say this?–surprising. Below you’ll find a few excerpts from our email conversations that I am titling “The Gospel, Salvation, and Epistemology (AKA Truth).” This is the first installment, with at least one more of the same title on the way. I hope you will enjoy listening in on our conversations and, if something unexpected draws you in, I hope you will share yourself and your learnings with Hannah and I (and the rest of the internet). We start this conversation with some responses to an essay written by Wendell Berry entitled, The Burden of the Gospels.

Hannah:

I understand that it is a mistake to be completely confident in your own reasoning “be careful when you think you stand lest you fall”1 Cor. 10:12, but you cannot come closer into a relationship with God without becoming increasingly confident, not in yourself, but in your Heavenly Father who never changes. “So says Jehovah, Do not let the wise glory in his wisdom, nor let the mighty glory in his might; do not let the rich glory in his riches; but let him who glories glory in this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am Jehovah, doing kindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth; for in these I delight, says Jehovah.” Jer. 9:23-24. Now why would it say that unless it is possible to understand and to know God? Of course we will never fully grasp all of the wonderful ways of God, but when it comes to the important matters concerning us, such as salvation, our relationship to Him and His will for our lives, it is obvious that God wants us to be confident. “For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast to the end,”Heb 3:14. Again let me emphasize that it is a confidence In Him. If we aren’t confident even when God Himself is teaching and revealing truth to us then we are in the same place as Eve, unable to stand on God’s own words as truth.

The writer (Wendell Berry) says “You will remember that in Jesus’ lifetime even his most intimate friends could hardly be described as overconfident.” But I would like to point out that after Jesus ascended and they were filled with the Holy Spirit, they became some of the boldest, most confident men in history. So confident in what they KNEW to be true, that they not only believed it whole-heartedly for themselves, but they were determined to make sure everyone knew the truth even if it cost them their lives.

Jason:

The hard thing here is that for faith to not be proud (meaning full of human wisdom/self-confidence), it must find humble ways to communicate—confident, but not like the world’s confidence. Another way to say it: a Christian’s confidence isn’t going to be dependent on human categories (such as “objectivity” or “inerrancy”) to make faith credible to the world. We Christians should be translating the world to the Gospels, not the other way around. To me, what separates self-confidence (or over-confidence) from faith is precisely that faith, after all, isn’t something proveable with our minds–it must be seen (or lived) in order to have the intended impact. On that note, I was a little surprised that you didn’t comment on Berry’s two interpretive (hermeneutic) questions, posed for “serious readers” of the Gospels: (1) “If you had been living in Jesus’ time and heard his teaching, would you have been one of his followers?, and (2) “Can you be sure you would keep His commandments if it became excruciatingly painful to do so?” Both questions invite the reader (us) to consider our practice alongside our doctrine. And that is the measure of our faith. Berry’s thesis might be that an “unconfident reader” will seek to live with the burden/influence of the Gospel’s unflinching demands.

The Discipline of Simplicity

If what we have we receive as a gift, and if what we have is to be cared for by God, and if what we have is available to others, then we will possess freedom from anxiety. -Richard J. Foster

My Boy Pissed on the Laptop

Just as you would expect, my two-month-old son shares his father’s same irate frustration with cybernetic optimism and technocracy. Even at such a young age, he appears to already be adopting my subversive ways of thinking and, now, has apparently committed technological “sabotage.” While for myself I might attempt to provoke the imaginations of the masses with occasional rants about technology and its unmerited place among the Powers, however, my son simply takes a piss right on the laptop screen, and then the keyboard too. No words, just piss. I might have even seen a little crooked smile sneak up on his “innocent” (but cute!) face after the deed was done. Good job, my boy! No apologies needed. Nope. Well done.